WEEK 152
God, what is your guidance for me today? How may I become a more loving soul?
Watch your heart today.
Pay close attention.
Notice, without judgment, when you feel
negativity, including anger, greed, jealousy,
envy and the like.
Observe moments of frustration, annoyance, resistance,
prejudice, arrogance, aloofness, and aversion.
These are only a few of a long
list of negative feelings humans contend with.
They are not love.
Today, watch and see when love is present
and when it isn’t.
To become a more loving person
let go of anything that is not of love.
Give it to God, and ask for the
grace to love.
Let go… and keep your heart open.
Open to receive divinity’s love,
that you may extend it in all things and
to all people at all times, today.
Will you do this?
Evening Reflection
It was a very interesting thing to watch my heart today. You can watch hour heart! Awareness, which is part of your consciousness, is independent of your emotions and feelings. It is there as an observer – a witness. You can watch yourself live from that expanded vantage point. Once you get used to it, it can be fun to do.
Today, one thing I noticed was that I felt jealousy. It actually surprised me. A friend informed me he was making a purchase of a motorcycle… and … I felt envious. Why? I asked myself that. I don’t really want a motorcycle. I realized that the crux of the matter was that even if I wanted one, I couldn’t afford it. Not with the financial responsibilities I had. I did have enough wherewithal to laugh at myself. And I prayed to let go and be open to allow love in and through me… and to extend it. And it worked. I became supportive. I was genuinely happy for them and even asked questions as I was interested in the details!
Later, I observed that I became annoyed at a nonchalant response to a personal sacrifice I’d made for someone. They didn’t respond with great appreciation. Again, I laughed at myself. I could go on, but it is clear I am a work in progress. I even felt frustration and resistance to do something I love with an acquaintance. But it needed to be done NOW – and I had my own agenda. I gave it to God – and amazingly, grace changed my attitude.
I have learned through reading about many spiritually advanced people that as long as you are in a human body… you are human! And will deal with ego, desire, envy, etc. Even when you think you have become desireless, you still are human. Few of us escape while in the body. Those who come close we call a saint. Everyone else we call forgiven.
